After hitting 244 lbs on Monday something went seriously wrong with my mental state which resulted in over eating...ending with a weight gain of over 7 lbs today...in a week.
I am such an incredibly stupid idiot...which aren't the words I actually said just now, but this is a public blog so wanted to be somewhat polite...I weigh myself daily so I knew I was gaining. Yet I couldn't stop myself.
So now I have to restart and lose the 7 again, when I could be losing the 4 lbs that would have brought me to the 230's. This has become a pattern recently, I lose and then gain it plus more back and have to spend 2 weeks re-losing it all...then lose a bunch and regain...and so on..
Really makes me mad and yet, I am powerless while it is happening, I try so hard to control the eating when this starts but it is like I have absolutely no will power at all during those times. At this rate I will never lose the weight but just keep losing the same 5 lbs or so over and over and over..
Monday, February 21, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
over 6 lbs lost..woohoo
So thought it was past time to check in , haven't done a weigh in for 3 weeks, mainly because for 2 weeks I was bouncing around between 251 and 255 lbs, but for the past week I've been doing much better, eating well and getting more than enough activity in to burn off lots of calories. I noticed last week I had dropped below 250 again, but didn't want to jinx it by getting excited so stayed off the scale until this morning. Where to my delight I saw 245.6 lbs! Cool!! I haven't been below 250 in forever!
Now if I count back from 2009 when I first started this blog at 284 lbs I have lost 39 lbs...not a lot in 3 years huh? LOL
19 of those pounds were shed between Nov. 2010 and now, which averages out to a little over 1 lb a week , without counting the weight I regained and lost a couple of times.
Hopefully I won't have anymore of those regaining weeks and will continue to lose weight, and if not lose every week, at least maintain and not gain!
Now if I count back from 2009 when I first started this blog at 284 lbs I have lost 39 lbs...not a lot in 3 years huh? LOL
19 of those pounds were shed between Nov. 2010 and now, which averages out to a little over 1 lb a week , without counting the weight I regained and lost a couple of times.
Hopefully I won't have anymore of those regaining weeks and will continue to lose weight, and if not lose every week, at least maintain and not gain!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Fun morning :-)
One of the great joys of losing weight that makes the process so worth it is when your size changes. I noticed that this morning when I tried to wear one of my favorite shirts, only to discover that it hung on me so bad that even I had to admit it looked awful!
That got me wondering, so I began pulling out shirts to try on. To my delight, as well as a small amount of sadness at losing old favorites, I have so many that are too big now that I started a "donate" bag. A part of me wants to keep these shirts, you know, just in case?
However, been there, done that. It's way to easy to gain weight and not even notice when you have a larger size laying around that you can slip into when your clothes start feeling just a little too snug! So out they go, Tony has a bag of clothes he wants to get rid of, I still have a bunch of Josh's big clothes here ( ok, I've been wearing them!!) and I will easily have a bag full..time for a call to the Big Sisters...or is it Little Sisters? I can never remember but luckily I save their card. I like calling them because they pick up the clothes and they go to FREE clothing banks ( I know this cause I saw some of Josh.s that I donated at one that I was going to) Yes, I'm sure there are folks that take advantage of that, but I know there are plenty of other folks that really need free clothes.
Of course the flip side of this is that I can now wear old favorites that I kept hoping to fit back into *someday* and there are a few more that I will be able to wear if I lose 5-10 more pounds and I pulled out the next size down in jeans too. Not to wear yet since I just went down a size in them, but as motivation :-D.
Oh and in other news..I am still smoke free! Struggling daily with this, being sick the past week helped a lot and even made me glad I wasn't smoking because my cough would have been so much worse and I probably would have ended up with bronchitis again. I've been using Altoids and all the flavors of Extra gum instead of smoking. Let's face it, a stick of Strawberry Shortcake chewing gum is much more enjoyable than a nasty cigarette!
That got me wondering, so I began pulling out shirts to try on. To my delight, as well as a small amount of sadness at losing old favorites, I have so many that are too big now that I started a "donate" bag. A part of me wants to keep these shirts, you know, just in case?
However, been there, done that. It's way to easy to gain weight and not even notice when you have a larger size laying around that you can slip into when your clothes start feeling just a little too snug! So out they go, Tony has a bag of clothes he wants to get rid of, I still have a bunch of Josh's big clothes here ( ok, I've been wearing them!!) and I will easily have a bag full..time for a call to the Big Sisters...or is it Little Sisters? I can never remember but luckily I save their card. I like calling them because they pick up the clothes and they go to FREE clothing banks ( I know this cause I saw some of Josh.s that I donated at one that I was going to) Yes, I'm sure there are folks that take advantage of that, but I know there are plenty of other folks that really need free clothes.
Of course the flip side of this is that I can now wear old favorites that I kept hoping to fit back into *someday* and there are a few more that I will be able to wear if I lose 5-10 more pounds and I pulled out the next size down in jeans too. Not to wear yet since I just went down a size in them, but as motivation :-D.
Oh and in other news..I am still smoke free! Struggling daily with this, being sick the past week helped a lot and even made me glad I wasn't smoking because my cough would have been so much worse and I probably would have ended up with bronchitis again. I've been using Altoids and all the flavors of Extra gum instead of smoking. Let's face it, a stick of Strawberry Shortcake chewing gum is much more enjoyable than a nasty cigarette!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Not a healthy weekend...
not because of food exactly, although that hasn't been too great either, but 2 family members are sick and 1 is coming down with it today...the other one has been coughing but hasn't gotten the fever and all yet.
Since Friday was yet another snow day from school, and I knew it on Thurs, I made brownies for the boys and yes I admit to having a small one also. Then we started getting sick...Friday night, Saturday and most of Sunday was spent huddling under afghans and quilts, everyone stayed home Monday to finish recuperating , plus it was very cold and I made a "Mom says no school today" decision.
Of course after being fever free all day, the youngest had it return just before bed so he needed to stay home today, then the oldest started with the symptoms this morning and I have gotten a little worse.
Anyhow....all this really played havoc with the diet/exercise plan! As you can tell by the weekly weigh in photo, I gained 1 pound! Not stressin it too much though, I know most of it is probably from all the fluids I've been having and I know I won't be eating too much today because of the way I am feeling. Besides...it's only a pound! LOL
Looking forward to be well again so I can restart the walking tapes, was thinking about trying to do the 1 mile today but since I'm blowing my nose every couple of minutes maybe I won't...LOL
Hope you're all staying warm (or cool depending on where you live!) and are feeling good!
Since Friday was yet another snow day from school, and I knew it on Thurs, I made brownies for the boys and yes I admit to having a small one also. Then we started getting sick...Friday night, Saturday and most of Sunday was spent huddling under afghans and quilts, everyone stayed home Monday to finish recuperating , plus it was very cold and I made a "Mom says no school today" decision.
Of course after being fever free all day, the youngest had it return just before bed so he needed to stay home today, then the oldest started with the symptoms this morning and I have gotten a little worse.
Anyhow....all this really played havoc with the diet/exercise plan! As you can tell by the weekly weigh in photo, I gained 1 pound! Not stressin it too much though, I know most of it is probably from all the fluids I've been having and I know I won't be eating too much today because of the way I am feeling. Besides...it's only a pound! LOL
Looking forward to be well again so I can restart the walking tapes, was thinking about trying to do the 1 mile today but since I'm blowing my nose every couple of minutes maybe I won't...LOL
Hope you're all staying warm (or cool depending on where you live!) and are feeling good!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Rewarding yourself..
Many people use a reward system to help them stay on track with their weight loss goals. This can be something simple for each 5-10 lbs lost or you can wait until you have lost a major amount, say 50 lbs.
I haven't tried it yet but it seems like a good idea. After all, many of us used the reward system for our children, either for chores, or school work, with great success, didn't we?
So I'm thinking that I may give it a go to help me stay off of cigarettes and help me stay on my diet. Every time I want to buy a pack, I'm going to start putting the cigarette money away instead. The idea being that when I reach a weight loss goal of 25 lbs I am going to use the money I saved on cigarettes to buy myself something.....probably something related to photography or weight loss.
I realize this may only work until the nicotine cravings have finally gone away but it should see me through the worst part of those because I'll be looking forward to whatever new gadget I plan on buying, and should also help me stick to the diet for the same reason!
At $9 a pack, 3 or 4 times a week, this should add up pretty well in the amount of time it would take to lose 25 lbs...which at 2 lbs a week would be 13 weeks, give or take. If I do the math at $27 a week x 13 weeks I get $351...WOW can get a lot of things for that..or one really big thing!
Getting excited thinking about what I will buy already..LOL. Maybe there IS something to this reward system after all!
What would you reward yourself with when you meet a goal and what would your goal be to earn that reward? Also, do you think the anticipation of the reward would help you stay on track?
I haven't tried it yet but it seems like a good idea. After all, many of us used the reward system for our children, either for chores, or school work, with great success, didn't we?
So I'm thinking that I may give it a go to help me stay off of cigarettes and help me stay on my diet. Every time I want to buy a pack, I'm going to start putting the cigarette money away instead. The idea being that when I reach a weight loss goal of 25 lbs I am going to use the money I saved on cigarettes to buy myself something.....probably something related to photography or weight loss.
I realize this may only work until the nicotine cravings have finally gone away but it should see me through the worst part of those because I'll be looking forward to whatever new gadget I plan on buying, and should also help me stick to the diet for the same reason!
At $9 a pack, 3 or 4 times a week, this should add up pretty well in the amount of time it would take to lose 25 lbs...which at 2 lbs a week would be 13 weeks, give or take. If I do the math at $27 a week x 13 weeks I get $351...WOW can get a lot of things for that..or one really big thing!
Getting excited thinking about what I will buy already..LOL. Maybe there IS something to this reward system after all!
What would you reward yourself with when you meet a goal and what would your goal be to earn that reward? Also, do you think the anticipation of the reward would help you stay on track?
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
hanging in there!
Ok, so didn't do that great last week, managed to get below 250 for about a day and then gained back some ozs to put me back above the 250 line.
But you know what?
It's OK!
It doesn't mean that I failed and should give up, it means I keep going cause I still have my mini goal of weighing 220 lbs by May 1. 30 lbs in 15 weeks should be doable.
Anyone that's following along (waves at Robin!) and struggling (or breezing along) towards your own goals...I know we can do this! As a dear friend says, "Even an elephant can be eaten one bite at a time" may not be the exact words but it's something along those lines (thanks Vicki!)....in fact that fits here exactly..LOL
I know we aren't as big as elephants, but the concept is the same...our fat can be eaten away a little at a time...oz by oz, lb by lb, sweat drop by sweat drop :-D if we just keep at it.
And won't it be great to be able to do things we can't do now? Wear clothes we can't wear now? I for one am looking forward to being healthier, being able to tie my shoes, buy my clothes in the normal section and wear stuff that fits right, and so many other things.
What are YOU looking forward to doing when you have lost your weight?
But you know what?
It's OK!
It doesn't mean that I failed and should give up, it means I keep going cause I still have my mini goal of weighing 220 lbs by May 1. 30 lbs in 15 weeks should be doable.
Anyone that's following along (waves at Robin!) and struggling (or breezing along) towards your own goals...I know we can do this! As a dear friend says, "Even an elephant can be eaten one bite at a time" may not be the exact words but it's something along those lines (thanks Vicki!)....in fact that fits here exactly..LOL
I know we aren't as big as elephants, but the concept is the same...our fat can be eaten away a little at a time...oz by oz, lb by lb, sweat drop by sweat drop :-D if we just keep at it.
And won't it be great to be able to do things we can't do now? Wear clothes we can't wear now? I for one am looking forward to being healthier, being able to tie my shoes, buy my clothes in the normal section and wear stuff that fits right, and so many other things.
What are YOU looking forward to doing when you have lost your weight?
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
short 'n sweet...
This morning the scale tells me that I only need to lose .6 more lbs and I will be out of the 250's!
Doing a teeny happy dance in anticipation of that!
Doing a teeny happy dance in anticipation of that!
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